Toni Stone dec. 8, 2001
401 Buck Hollow Road
Fairfax, VT 05454
the more grateful i get
i notice the more grateful i get the better life goes.
i used to think that being thankful was wimpy, pathetic, powerless expression.
i don’t know why, but it seems my family thinks that way too.
whenever i say that i am thankful about anything at all, it is ignored,
brushed by and the subject is immediately changed as if it was inferior
to talk that way. i mean it’s hard to tell. it’s met with indifference.
if i swore or yelled obscenities, i think, that would merit a response at least
but gratitude elicits indifference. it makes it hard to practice gratitude in some environments outwardly
but inwardly no one can stop my gratitude from growing. it needs to.
in being as thankful as i could be…
but, i am grateful to have started on the driveway of noticing how often resentment wants the road instead.
the mind set of gratefulness is the first frontier i have taken on…
forcing myself to consider how auspicious my life is,
how lucky i am, how many benefits, bonuses and bounties are mine.
when i think of it my body relaxes, my spirit rises. i feel happy to feel so good.
i am surprised that my life has so much blessing. i notice the opportunities
to give more than ever before, of everything because i have so much.
i become more generous…
being more generous
i certainly expect ever more good
and i get it.
gratitude changes me into
someone who expects and gets
even double parking places on
streets where no one else can
find one place to park.
often as i drive up, some kind soul
will pull out so i can pull in.
i am exceedingly grateful.
